OH MY GOSH!!!!!! I cried today......i'll tell you bout it when I talk to you later

(can't wait to talk to you. Also really hope you have an answer)

Hope you hade a great day you deserve it cause your like the best person i kno in this world so i hope you hade a gOod day

I just feel special talking to you..............because your just so special

Sorry i just wanted to get that of my. Chest so bad

Ahh i feel so worthless today at school i had a panic attack i was so scared and just run outa the grade it was so scary i was stuck by myself no one cared or wanted to help me when the people from my grade at school saw me later they looked at me like i was a freak and it all happend cause they were forcing me to read somthing out loud omg im such a nothing

Something else a few of like family mambers came around tonight for dinner kinda like a party im such a loser i said hi to them and my aunty tried to hug me like a greet i just hesitated and it made me feel like nothing inside like i cant hug someone with out getinv freaked out or thinking down on myself i hate myself i hate me
Then my uncle asked me hows school i answerd with an akward wishper like yer i think they all just gave up they just left me alone after that it made me feel like a freak

Then when we had dinner i said i was full so i didnt have to sit with everyone else i didnt even eat today dinner was my only meal and i didnt have it cause im such a loser i cant even eat with my only family because im scared they will judge me

I want to cut i want to cry i want to just dissapear i wish i was invisible so i couldnt be seen i judged i hate this i wanna be with you when i talk to you i actually feel like i deserve to be alive like im liked by someone

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, I hate school, its the worst thing EVER, well, maybe there is worse, but right now its the worst. hehe. SO, I think bout things I want to tell you, but then I start talking to you, and I forget them :P Maybe I should start making a list of things I want to tell you or talk to/with you bout. Smart, I think I will. There is like 50 sometin days left till the end of school, haha, that would be funny if I said "50 sometin days left till the END" I make myself laugh sometimes, only sometimes. You make me smile and laugh. Whenever I talk to you I smile, and like 2 hours later I stop smiling:P I didnt feel like PMing you, cause this is just..............easier.

I miss you!!!!
<3 Sarah

I wonder if you think of me half as much as I think about you.

I posted a new blog

it hurts me when i see all this that you have written bout yourself. You are beautiful in every-single-way possible. You may not think this, but I care bout you, everyday. Your my favorite person to talk too. Let me know if I can help you in anyway possible

A couple weeks ago, if you asked me if I was happy, i would say no. This week if you asked me, i would say yes. Just talking to the most wonderful person in the whole entire world makes me happy