I miss talking to you a lot! I hope to hear from ya' soon!

It's been a long time! Shit has been crazy in my life. To sum it up; divorce, SH, loss, knowledge (too much), and awfulness. But there are some good things too. I think...

how are you?!

neither have i, but im back for good now. meh thats not true, you can live without him, hard i know but ive been in a relationship over a year thinking i couldnt live without them and then i could. you'll be okay

ive been okay, busy with school got side tracked but okay, and ive got a new girlfriend you?

Wow. I haven't been around in ages, I know. I don't know what my problem has been lately. I guess just the depression and self harm. I'm dying because my boyfriend who I had been with for about a year left me because he thinks I love the razor more than I love him. Not true. So I thought I'd come back. Since I really need it. I am determined to show him I can live without it but it's proving to be haaaard. But I'm seriously determined. So we shall see.

So... Jesus... how have you been?

aw it just sounds like your having a hard time :/ once you get it all back on track it'll be fine, its just piling up on you. deal with one thing at a time.

Im okay right now, you?

My dad just yells for no freaking reason. It's got my self esteem sinking a little bit every damn day. And now I'm fighting with my best friend because he called me needy. Which I don't think I am. He apologized but it really hit hard. And now I am really struggling in school. I rarely get my homework done and when I do, half of it is wrong. I've been slipping with my job here lately and that's not good at all. All of this makes me hate myself. Like I feel I can't please ANYONE. Not even myself. I can't do anything right and this makes me even more depressed.

Anyway, how are you?

Oh whats been wrong?

I've been depressed out of my mind so I rarely get on anymore. But I'm alive. Barely.

And with the smoking thing. So agreed. People are all talk and no action, man.

Yeah exactly me too. its like people going on about how bad smoking is, then dont sell cigarettes at all and ban them? whats the point really. that was completely of topic but there we are.

Ive been so busy with coursework i havent been on in ages. A levels suck and im sick.