Hey there, welcome to TeenHelp. My name is Michael. I saw your recent post, and just wanted to let you know that if you ever need anyone to talk to that I am always here. I've been through a very similar experience in my life, so I understand where you are, relatively. I've learned to cope through various methods, but at times I still fall into a similar mindset. So, I get where you're coming from. I also understand what it is like to be addicted to something that gives you a negative outlook, where in your case it is art. Depression can become addictive. Something about it can make you feel goodly bad. I also wanted to say if you ever need someone to talk to when I'm not here, there's always the chat. Anyways, have a great week/weekend.