love you too sweetie <3 xxx
Thank you soo much. I think my blog entry pretty much sums up how im feeling right now :/
crap

I'm glad that it made you smile
I'm always here for you, no matter what.
If you get tipped over the edge try and stay calm and don't do anything stupid. I'm always here if you need me.
Uni hunting will be great
I love youuuuuuu <333

Aw that made me smile honey. Thank you so much for being there for me.
I don't know what im gonna do. If i get tipped over the edge then i may end up doing it.
Aw sweetie i can't wait to go uni hunting with you either. Love you soo much <3 xxx

Plans can be changed. Don't do anything to hurt yourself or anything permenent. I know it seems like ages but time flies and it will come quicker than you think.
Besides i can't wait to see you and go visiting random uni's Who else would i go with to look at psychology departments otherwise?
Things will get easier i promise. Don't give up.
I love youuuuuuu so much <3

i can't emma. i can't wait that long. i made my plan a few months ago and i think it's time to go ahead. i'd set my date and made my plan, but i decided not to do it..maybe now i should
love you moree and sorry if im upsetting you <3 xxxxx

I know it's incredibly hard and it hurts like hell right now. But just think in less than 2 years you can get out of there and go to uni or get awayanother way
Don't give up now. You are strong, incredible, amazing and you CAN beat this. You will beat this. You wouldn't be better of dead.
I love you <3333

but i can't cope with it no more Emma. Last week she was crying andf saying she's gonna support me and help me as much as she can and today she chucked me out. I can't deal wiuth that no more. i just wanna die. i'd be better off
thanks sweetie <3 xxx

It is NOT your fault sweetheart never ever think that. You didn't ask for this or want it so it's not your fault.
People are nieve and ignortant they chose to ignore things and pretend that they never happened or are not happeneding just because it's easier than facing the truth. It doesn't make it your fault. I am sorry that she is not suppoeting you like she should be bu maybe se needs time. It's hard to take in things sometimes and sheprobably won't understand it but she may come round.
You're not alone though i for one am always here to support you <3

my auntie she's just choosing not to understand
She wants to understand how i can be so normal with the person who abused me when i was younger and ive tried explaining to her it's what i had to then and still am doing now. If i changed my habits or way with him then everyone would realise there was something wrong and i didn't want that. Didn't need that fuss. But she's still not wanting to understand what im saying. She's not talking to me properly, or wanting me to stay in her house. Basically im getting shit for what he's done, she's fine absolutely fine with him. That just goes to show this shit must be my fault. How can it not be?
<3 xxx

Whats happened sweetheart? <3