thank you soooo much. that made me feel good inside. im going to doctor today. i was told last week it was probably necesary. hopefully with meds i will be better soon and not do stupid things. thank you Nikki. you are an amazing and wonderful person. love you too!!

Just wanted to say hey.
Love ya!!

Anytime hon

yeah, i get it. and thank you

That's a good start. And believe me, I do know how hard changing the way you see things can be. But you'll be better off once you manage to. I'm proud of you for continuing to try.
I'm here for you anytime at all dearie.

yeah, i will work on it nikki. im trying. i am.

No sweetie...the only reason I hadn't talked to you anymore since you'd last PM'ed me was because you'd said to leave you alone. I didnt want to push you, because I know things have been hard on you
And it's ok that you aren't used to it, but it's something you probably want to really work on then. Because there will always be someone who is willing to help, no matter what

bc i thought i had lost you and shana. you two saved me. i mean it. im crying right now thinking of what could have been. i wish i hadnt done what i did to you two. im not use to people helping me or how to handle it or them even sticking around. im really sorry

Honey, you'll have times where looking back you think what you did was stupid. But it's a matter of being able to what you think was stupid to good use; find ways you can "make up" for it so to speak. Why do you think you have no friends? I consider you a friend, and I'm sure a lot of other people do too

you and shana helped me more than you will ever know. im not sure what would have happened on the 22nd and a lot has happned since then. i just do stupid things. and end up with no friends.