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Hahaha, soz LOL. Hey, you're my fiftieth visitor's message! I can't think of a better person to hear from for the fiftieth time . I'm really starting to settle in at TH now. Exactly one month since I joined. Milestones flying everywhere LOL.

Yeah, those are really high demand topics, you get a lot of threads and responses from Sex and Puberty and Relationships and Dating, definitely. What is the most "out of your comfort zone" topic you have ever written a response about?

Mine is Women's Health when I was on MH. A young woman was asking about why her "Upper Chest" wouldn't grow and I am just stunned thinking "what the flip?" LOL.

You definitely deserve compliments. I tell my friends when they have birthdays and stuff "you deserve nothing but awesomeness and better" and that is definitely the case with you .

Much love, have a good night, Ellie . I'm half asleep writing this LOL. Peace out, Hamed Khatiz <3.

Oh, and why have I not sent you a friend request this far into knowing you aha? Friend request = sent .

Haha, thanks for excusing that LOL. The best place the vent would be the counsellor's office, tomorrow fourth session please.

Hahaha, "I actually kind of like Maths... more like I kind of like the guy I sit next to." LOL.

There is not always a connection, though. I had a major crush on the girl I sit next to in English and I hate that subject. She's still a friend and English is still ugh LOL.

Extension is a lot to take in, the major essay that the guys in my class have to do for the HSC is killing them right now. That major essay is pretty much their focal assessment right now, so rally tough stuff.

Yeah, sometimes it really is. How come, what do you reckon? I am getting way less nervous around girls and I don't really think about how they are nervous and unconfident around me maybe.

Eh! You're a HelpLink Mentor! I got into HL yesterday and am loving the idea. What are some of your topics that you advise on? Is there a favorite topic or a topic which you just cannot talk about? Grabbing from that vent, when I answer questions on the forums, I find it really hard to talk about Self Harm and Suicide cause you're kind of stunned and don't know what to say.

I love talking about exercise and training. Oh and music of course (there is a Music Forum here, best one) haha.

Aww, thank you!

Hahaha, totally dude, Listening to Boyce Avenue is much better than calculating the present value of an annuity. Although music sometimes helps me study. If only you could bring music into the exam.

Yeah, a huge assignment on a topic you love and feel passionate about is no drama at all, cause you have that committment there, no matter how hard the actual assignment is. A small assignment on Maths is terrible LOL . What is better, Ancient or Modern?

I have an idea, do extension history!!!!!

Nice to hearf you like the idea. I post the films on my YT channel, hamedkhatizfilm. I haven't put anything up yet, but that is where they shall go . You have YT?

No. She hasn't even reacted with anyone on her TH account since the Thursday I told my principal what happened (10th May). I tried emailing her on Saturday but she hasn't responded. Because she uses her DET email address, it gives me reason to think she hasn't been going to school and that is not a good sign at all. Non responsive, attendance out, suicidal, not a good mix at all.

I just realised something chilling. Her deadline to move out of home passed yesterday .

MAJOR VENT ALERT LOL

One of the major reasons she gave to me for feeling like she wanted to end it was that she was sick of being single. I told her I loved her (not meant in a romantic way) and when she asked in what way did I love her and I clarified myself, she goes "yeah, i get it, you don't love me any more than a friend, no one does and i am sick of this."

Those were the last words she said to me. In a way, it's a bit sad that romantic relationships mean so much to people when there is so much more out there.

I don't really like having to read really triggering, full on deppressive posts and stories about self harm and stuff like that because it makes everything just a little bit darker.

On MH (MedHelp), I met this girl called Charlotte and her story was intriguing more than anything. She said she felt like she was watching her life like a film and she is not part of it. I cannot imagine what that feels like, so I learnt a few things from her. But a lot of the time, it is not nice to read or have to hear about.

VENT OVER AHA.

That whole last week has got me thinking, why do people not see love and people caring about them? There is so much love out there for people, friends, family, people you haven't met yet and people are committing suicide an self harming because they think no one loves them.

I just hate it when I complliment someone and they say "no, you don't mean that", "I'm not beautiful" kind of thing.

Sorry if this post was all me me me aha . Some of it was vent, so much of it was vent, you probably didn't see the rest of the post aha. There were actually two questions at the top of the post, search for them aha.

Hamed Khatiz.

Three days. Glad you missed me hahaha.

Thank you so much for the consideration, I have been going really well. Cruising along nicely. Doing assignments (or trying to and NOT getting distracted by my music LOL).

I am considering starting to write a new film exploring the thought that (did you know?) when you're drowning, after the initial choking and suffocating, it's actually a kind of euphoric experience, like you are in a dream. My English teacher said that, so I am probably going ask him what he means by that on Wednesday and start from there.

My titles always have one word LOL. "Briane", "United", "Dante".

I will probably check up with my principal tomorrow about my friend from last week. I haven't heard from her since the day I put her on report (Thursday afternoon last week).

I am also doing counselling tomorrow for the first time in a long time. .

Homework should be made illegal haha. You do Ancient History, you told me? In NSW? We're doing New Kingdom Egypt and Historical Period. This whole historical period thing is murdering my head aha . Can't wait until it's over. When you get to historical period, just hang in there, it is the hardest and most confusing.

Especially religion, Cult of Amun, temple of Karnak, etc.

All in all, awesome three days, full of ideas and I have got so much planned for tomorrow

How have things been trailing your way since we last talked?

She's crying like a refugee?

Night! <3

Thank you!

Sleep well. <3

Ahh right. It's only 12:19 on a saturday here haha.