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About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Brandy McCarter
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- Tennessee
- About
- About me
- i am 15, and five days before my thirteenth birthday, my father committed suicide. since then, in two short years i have had 9 close family members die. life kinda sucks...im tryin to work on to get through it, though. i have trouble talking about stuff, i inherited that and my interest in art from my dad, but i am trying to get better. my progress, however, is hindered by my mothers refusal to be a good parent and her lack of will power. all she does is convert to whatever the current trend is, and, at the moment, that happens to be her new husband, who, in my opinion, is a conceited, self centered, douche bag. i guess i have to get over that though, cause i doubt the marriage will end anytime soon. my aunt is more of a mom to me than my mother and i hardly ever get to see her. i want to find some good in life. i always seem to catch sight of it, can feel it in my grasp, then it slips away.
- Details
- Here for
- Like to help and be helped
- Relationship status
- In a relationship
- Sexuality
- Heterosexual/Straight
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- High School
- Occupation
- Expo at Texas Roadhouse
- Politics
- Apathetic
- Religion
- Atheist
- Zodiac sign
- Aquarius
- Interests
- Hobbies
- i play guitar and sing, draw, and read.
drawing and reading takes up most of time though, i also can play bass...not that well though. - Music
- ive seen cage the elephant, shinedown, chevelle, sevendust, transiberian orchestra, 10 years, puddle of mudd, in this moment, three days grace, hollywood undead, stone sour, avenged sevenfold, godsmack, luminoth, bullet for my valentine, disturbed, korn, all that remains, new medicine, and better than ezra in concert, but im also a fan of regina spektor, lisa loeb, rachael diggs, marie digby, and many other artists
- Movies
- drop dead fred, half baked, weird science, 16 candles, breakfast club, st. elmos fire, dream for an insomniac
- Television
- walking dead, NCIS, psych, courage the cowardly dog
- Games
- dead rising, house of the dead 3, burnout, conker, mortal kombat, musashi, and kingdom hearts 2
- Books
- the forest of hands and teeth/carrie ryan, the dead tossed waves/carrie ryan, the dark and hollow places/ carrie ryan, the summong/kelley armstrong, the reckoning/kelley armstrong, the awakening/kelley armstrong, the gathering/kelley armstrong, the wolves in the walls/neil gaiman, the graveyard book/neil gaiman, m is for magic/neil gaiman, swan song/robert mccamon, if tomorrow comes/ sidney sheldon, nothing lasts forever/sidney sheldon, sandman series/neil gaiman, everything can be beaten/Chancre Scolex and Crab Scrambly(Jhonen Vasquez), neverwhere/neil gaiman, the zombie survival guide/max brooks, American gods/ Neil gaiman, what the night knows/dean koontz, intensity/dean koontz, velocity/dean koontz, relentless/dean koontz, interworld/Neil gaiman, the ocean at the end of the lane/Neil gaiman
- Sports
- chicago white sox
- Heroes
- dave mckean
neil gaiman
michael turner
Adam hughes
my dad (R.I.P.) - Favorite quotes
- "its taken a lifetime to lose my way, a lifetime of yesterdays, all this wasted time on my hands turns to sand and fades in the wind."
"theres a hard life for every silver spoon, theres a touch of grey for every shade of blue, thats the way thats i see life, if there was nothin wrong then thered be nothin right."
"today is tomorrow and tomorrow is today and yesterday is weaving in and out"
"love is what makes your soul crawl out of its shell"
"death is sleep with a much longer dream."
“And what good's a life that leaves nothing behind, not a thought or a dream that might echo in time.”
"how silver sweet sound lovers toungues by night, like softest music to attending ears."
"i sat and watched your flowers wilting in your kitchen, i felt like i was one of them gasping for air."
"We pass and leave you lying. No need for rhetoric, for funeral music, for melancholy bugle-calls. No need for tears now, no need for regret.
We took our risk with you; you died and we live. We take your noble gift, salute for the last time those lines of pitiable crosses, those solitary mounds, those unknown graves, and turn to live our lives out as we may. Which of us were fortunate -- who can tell? For you there is silence and cold twilight drooping in awful desolation over those motionless lands. For us sunlight and the sound of women's voices, song and hope and laughter, despair, gaiety, love -- life."- Richard Aldington
"you talk too much, you say too little..."- Better than Ezra
"you dont think youre special, you dont think youre strong, but when the sky is falling, you feel like you belong. it might not be obvious It might not be obvious But you're not alone We're going to let you wander But never on your own And I don't know if I can help you You could tell me all you need Its all right, You're wanted Tonight it's alright You're wanted And your expectations Are killing you slow You're getting what you wanted But pain is all you know"- Wanted by Rachael Diggs
"-People think dreams aren't real just because they aren't made of matter, of particles. Dreams are real. But they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories and puns and lost hopes."-John Dee (from sandman)
"I have always felt," he said, "that violence was the last refuge of the imcompetant, and empty threats the final sanctuary of the terminally inept."
"my fake plants died because i did not pretend to water them."
"An escalator can never break: it can only become stairs. You should never see an Escalator Temporarily Out Of Order sign, just Escalator Temporarily Stairs. Sorry for the convenience."
"You know when they have a fishing show on TV? They catch the fish and then let it go. They don't want to eat the fish, they just want to make it late for something."
"Is a hippopotamus a hippopotamus, or just a really cool Opotamus?"
"I wish my name was Brian because maybe sometimes people would misspell my name and call me Brain. That's like a free compliment and you don't even gotta be smart to notice it."
"I used to do drugs. I still do drugs. But I used to, too."
"I would imagine that if you could understand Morse code, a tap dancer would drive you crazy."
"My belt holds my pants up, but the belt loops hold my belt up. I don't really know what's happening down there. Who is the real hero?"
"I wanted to buy a candle holder, but the store didn't have one. So I got a cake."
"The depressing thing about tennis is that no matter how good I get, I'll never be as good as a wall."
"People teach their dogs to sit; it's a trick. I've been sitting my whole life, and a dog has never looked at me as though he thought I was tricky."
" I like to play blackjack. I'm not addicted to gambling. I'm addicted to sitting in a semi-circle."
"I once saw a forklift lift a crate of forks. And it was way to literal for me.
"Every time I go and shave, I assume there's someone else on the planet shaving. So I say, 'I'm gonna go shave, too.'"
"I wish I could play little league now. I'd be way better than before."
"My friend asked me if I wanted a frozen banana. I said 'No, but I want a regular banana later, so... yeah.'"
"a waffle is like a pancake with a syrup trap."
“I was walking down the street with my friend and he said 'I hear music,' as though there's any other way to take it in. 'You're not special. That's how I receive it too... I tried to taste it, but it did not work.'"
'Thats how you know you've found somebody special, when you can sit back and comfortably shut the fuck up.'
'Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.'
'Im rude, bad tempered, and basically, I don't like people. Maybe that makes me a jerk, but it sure beats what you are.'
'Fun is fleeting. It's pain that gives life its meaning' - Other interests
- If anyone wants snapchat me, my user name is KnucklePrincess, I'm also on Facebook (brandy mccarter), gmail (ablm006@gmail.com), and twitter (brandymccarter). I can't go online as much so if anyone wants to talk, contact me through those!
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- twinkle um...is a good word
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Posted July 20th 2012 at 06:22 AM by Brandy McCarter
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ok, so i thought everything was fixed and cool and fine, whatever you wanna say. my grandpa got me out of the house and away from my mom, finally, i thought everything was going to get better, but now i have to go back cause hes being a douche bag! hes power tripping and being completely (sorry to cliche the old 'angry teen' line) unfair. he claims that hes the 'parent' in the situation and that hes only trying to help. well, keeping me an extra 15 minutes on the phone when im supposed to be at...
Posted July 13th 2012 at 08:06 AM by Brandy McCarter
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so, i dont understand the association with misery and missing someone. you can be happy, and miss someone, you can be angry, and still miss someone. you can have everything in the world that you ever wanted, and be miserable. just because im happy when im relieved that we're trying to find a solution to the problem, doesnt mean i dont miss you, nor does it mean that i dont love you. ive had an enormous amount of loss in my life, and i know it could be worse, but right now, for the first time ever,...
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