[EDITED]since Febuary 2nd. God Im so gross, my body is disgusting as well, do you have any idea how many times I've been told that this week?... Lent is coming up, which is the reasoning for my restricted intake, well, at least at first. Now Im just letting it go. I don't know, I triggered myself, I see my overweight family members(whom I love so much...) and Im just terrified that im going to be that way... every once in awhile I'll break and purge, I feel like Im falling back into my patterns from June when I had anorexia. I've been fasting and eating very little and its been taking a lot out on my strength. What is it like to be normal? To ACTUALLY love yourself.... Its mostlt my scars getting to me... Id rather be skinny and scarred instead of disgustingly fat and scarred too....
