[i_like_black]

I feel lonely and I feel bad for feeling lonely, because I know if people visited, I wouldn't be able to talk to them properly or allow myself to get the physical contact I need from them anyway.

I just feel yuck. I don't mind being forgotten about, I know people are busy and have lots of other clients. It's just that this week, I needed that contact, and there's no way I can actually tell them that, so as a result I feel lonely . . . and I feel bad for feeling that way because there's nothing I will do about it anyway.