[sassyforgaga]

hi. this is my first post so excuse me if i go on a rant. thanks.

i'm fourteen years old and i'm gay. i have never kissed a boy or even had a boyfriend before. so of course i feel lonely. my dad makes inappropriate gay jokes that hurt my feelings. my mom just kind of ignores the fact that i'm gay. i have a best friend named stephanie and she lets me vent about all these things. i think im ugly and that i will never find anybody out there that will love me. i'm skinny and i think i look really ugly.
i wanna have muscle and i'm gonna dye my hair dirty blonde soon. i feel insecure about my body and i really think that i'm ugly. i don't have suicidal thoughts and i dont cut myself. i bite myself sometimes when i'm angry or frustrated. i havent been doing it much. people call me "faggot" and other offensive names. i dont have to many close friends.
i also hate when people use the word "gay" in a derogatory way. but the main focus of this post is i feel lonely. i have never had my first kiss and never really had a guy that likes me. i have never heard anybody except my friends and my family say they love me.
i want someone who can make me feel like i'm important. everybody thinks i'm weird. they make fun of me becuase i am a stereotypical gay person. so please. i doubt that anybody will read this post but i posted it anyways. but for the caring people who did, thank you.