[mindflower]

CS- I'm sorry for causing so much drama for you. I shouldn't have let this happen; you're my ex, I can't do this. I put us both in danger for letting us have sex, and now everyone is finding out and so I understand if you hate me. But part of me still loves you. I'm just so sorry. And if you don't want to ever hear my voice or see my disgusting face, fine. So I'll leave.

MO-I'm sorry you had to find out this way about C and me doing it.... I do really love you but I'm not sure what we are or if we'll ever really have anything romance wise. I'm just so confused. But you know, sometimes it gets annoying when the only thing you ever care about is My Chemical Romance, and I feel like I can't talk to you about anything anymore. There's a reason you know... I don't want to hurt you. When I'm gone, I just hope you can stay strong, please for me. You've worked so hard, one mistake from me.... please don't throw it all away for the stupid ex-girlfriend with a bag full of secrets... Oh, and, I'm terribly jealous of you, just how you're so perfect in every way, and I will never be. That's why MC left me you know... because you were so wonderful. You deserve someone just as perfect.... not me. So I'll leave.

JH-Thank you... I just really need to say thank you. The past month or so, its like you're one of the only people who I know I can truthfully talk to, and you'll listen. I won't lie, since you'll never actually see this, but I have gained some feelings for you. Just because it feels like you care. And you might just be another guy leading the easy girl on, but it feels really wonderful having you to talk to. But I just can't do this anymore. It hurts to stay alive when no one cares or wants me anyways. So I'll leave.

AG- I really hope everything turns out okay for you, and if not soon, then I just hope you're safe. But I'm hoping that nothing I do ever drags you down like so many girls have been dragged before. So I'll leave.

KH- You've always been there for me, thank you so much babydoll. You've helped me through the hardest times of my life, saved me from so much shit and suicides, and you're just one awesome friend. But I can't take it anymore. And I'll leave.

ZG- I was never mad at you, ever. I'm trying to be happy for you, but me, the pessimist, its impossible for me to be happy at all. The way he looks so happy with you, a happiness I'd never given him....I'm so jealous its torturing me. So I'll leave.

MC- there's a reason I left you for last. Its because I love you, with everything I am, so much that it kills me to not hear your voice or feel your warmth or taste your love in return for mine. I'm just 15 they say, you're just obsessed they say, he's just going to manipulate you they say. Well maybe you used me, I don't care, because I love you. I know I do. You were the first and only person who ever really made me feel worth it. So I need to thank you... just for everything. First kiss. First "I love you". First time sexual. And then you left me for MO, and that's understandable, she's so much better than me. But it hurt.... it hurt so much. And then months passed, and you seemed to come back to me, well not really, but it felt so perfect again, I just.... died when it ended. It was, though awful as a result, everything I had wished love would be. I felt so.... alive. I'm sorry things ended with her, but thank you for saving me from a swirling pool of loneliness. Now you seem to be really happy with ZG, and I understand that she is so much prettier and sweeter than me as well as MO.... so I understand that too. Whatever I did to make you okay to leave me twice.... I'm sorry. I wish I would have been good enough, because I know I can't live without you. I'm sorry for being annoying, for being pathetic and fake, and for anything I ever did to cause you trouble. I'm just... sorry.... so I'll leave.
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