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Originally Posted by Hope To Cope
Hey there,
Holidays are hard, I agree. But, to figure out how you can stop feeling this way, you need to scrounge deep and find what triggered you.
Every problem has a basis which needs to be found in order to find a solution.
For christmas, I only have my mum and my guinea pig to keep me company and usually I stay in my bedroom for all of christmas. I'm sort of jealous of my friends whom are going to their relatives places for christmas dinner, hell, i have only seen my gran this year because of my damn illness... Seeing my family at christmas/new years is impossible to do, but often I wish they could come down, surprise me. That's why I'm lonely, now find yours.
You're sixteen, are you lonely because you don't have a relationship? Or you have a relationship and cannot see her? Do you come from a broken home and seeing others milling around with complete families, laughing and happy hurt you? You need to look at your back ground and see how come you feel this way.
Sorry that I could not have been of more help,
Jay.
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I went and thought this over for a while, and I came up with some possibilities.
I'm not currently in a relationship, nor have I ever been in one. It does bother me sometimes, but I don't think it's the root of the problem.
I think what really triggers it for me is that I have never really experienced true friendship. I said in the first post that I didn't have many friends, so I'll elaborate on that. I've never had anyone who I was very close to. I was often left out by others when I was in primary school, hell, I even remember that when I was in playschool, the other kids wouldn't play with me because they thought I was strange (I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's true). No-one ever really wanted to have anything to do with me. The only friends I did make in primary were through my parents knowing their parents or something like that, and these friendships just never took off.
Everyone else around me has real friends who they've been friends with for a long time. They all have at least one close friend who they can trust with anything and who they can rely on to help them get through the hard times. I've never had anyone who I could really connect with. I've only really felt lonely in the last few months, the day it kind of dawned on me was my 16th birthday, I was alone for that as well and I realised how much of a sadcase I was for not having any friends I could celebrate my 16th with. I think being left out for most of primary school has hurt me, I was mocked and teased quite often as well and that set me up for being seriously bullied in secondary. That's over for the most part now, so I guess I have to move on and stop talking about it.
Sorry for the post being so long, but I just had to get all of that out.