[mindflower]

I still love him....and deep down inside I wish those two would break up....so I could just have him again....
I think I'm going to kill myself....
or cut, one of the two anyway.....
I dream about him every night, and constantly think about him in the day.... its overwhelming.... my hearts obsessed with him and my brain is spinning....so much...
Every time we hug or even just catch each others eyesight, I whisper to you in my mind so you can't know.... "I love you Matthew...."