[iamverybeautiful]

I have always thought that I wanted to work internationally, hopping countries through countries. I've always been curious about geography and history and I love learning about countries and their issues. Because of this, I chose a double major (one of them being an international-focused major).

I went to Europe for a few months this summer and even though I had a great time, I felt very depressed when I came home. I felt lost (as if I didn't know what to do) because I had lost my normal routine. Weeks went by, I saw my friends, and eventually I got back to my routine.

However, this whole experience showed me how important it is to have a support system (family and friends). If I want to actually pursue this degree, I would have to study and work internationally. But I don`t want to do that anymore. I have moved places so much throughout my whole life that I`m tired of it. I`m tired of always starting fresh in a new place. For once in my life, I feel that I finally have a good support system and I don`t want to leave. I was looking up the CVs of a few of my professors and they have done schooling and work in at least a few different countries. I just could not imagine how it would be to have a social life when you`re constantly moving... I even heard another professor say that he`s married to his work...

I remember a few months ago I was looking up a 6-month internship with the UN. It would be completely perfect and it would look sooooo good in my resume but.. that means leaving home again for 6 months. And to be honest, I think I`ve done quite of bit of traveling for my age and I think I would like to settle down for now (not that I will not travel for vacation or something, but not for long periods of time). I am able to adjust to new environments (since I`ve been forced to before), but I`m also a bit closed off and I think the reason is because I`ve never had a stable group of friends.

I think that I can still be interested in international issues but I feel that being close to home is more important to me.

I guess this was not really a question lol, mostly just my thoughts. But I would love to hear what you guys think. I think my problem is to realize that just because I`m not working internationally, doesn`t mean that I cannot be successful in my line of work (I have no idea why I used to think that lol-- perhaps it`s the fault of the many ads that promote international work)