[Katie Lydia]

I was raped/sexually assaulted yesterday by my best friend, i've came home and left my flat to be with my mum, i told her everything, she's being very supportive.

I guess the reason i'm posting this is why do i feel numb? I cried for short periods of time yesterday, i felt a little angry earlier but now i feel semi-normal. I'm posting on here like nothings happened, i'm trying to study and listening to music.

The only time i feel different is when i try to study but that's because it's so hard, i don't have all the information and the fact that i'm taking the week off college so i'm going to have much more work and exams to do when i go back.

Im taking the week off college because the guy that done it is in my class. I just feel so, empty, numb. Shouldn't i be screaming, crying? I wonder if im still in shock.