[bitesize]

Soo...

So we kissed last night.

You kissed me and I kissed you back before remembering my boyfriend was right there and would probably prefer it if I stopped, so I stopped, even though kissing you was great.

I'm trying not to like you. I really really like being your friend - I fancied you for the first week and then when I reminded myself it was always going to be useless I set about trying to just see you as a friend and it's starting to work and I really like it. We really really click, I haven't met anyone in a while that I have so much in common with. If fancying you isn't a good idea I want us to be good friends and it's been starting to work.

And then you go and kiss me in the middle of...whatever that was last night. And now I'm scared to look you in the eye. I loved that we were holding hands and touching off of each other while those things were being done to us, I wish I could let you know how much I would have loved to keep kissing you. I'm so so scared things are going to be awkward on Monday. I don't want this to get in the way of what's starting to be a really good friendship.

I feel weird because even though my boyfriend is ok with it, it feels odd that I've kissed someone else. I haven't kissed someone that's not him in 2 and a half years and then you come along and kiss me out of nowhere so no wonder I'm feeling a bit weird.

I jsut feel...weird. And smug..like...I knew you always wanted to do that.