[bitesize]

'You like your Sagittarians, don't you??' - that is, in four YEARS, the first of any kind of reference you have made to the two of us ever being together. The first. In all that time. I know you're a Sagittarius but I ignored you because that threw me. Why now?? I have to talk to you but I'm not sure if I can get up the guts. And I think it's interesting how today we had two big hugs while we were in our brother-sister characters but we never do that in real life.... I don't know why, but it's interesting. I'm still attracted to you but it's nowhere near as problematic as it was over the summer. It's calmed down now.


You - I feel like I want to take care of you. I feel so protective over you. I think it's something to do with how I saw you last week...it hurt to see how cut up and self-hating someone could be and I don't want you to feel that way. You appear somehow fragile to me... you're so skinny and you look so sad sometimes and I don't know if it's because of that - you seem to have been through a lot - but I just want to hold onto you and make you feel better. I loved that you asked me for a hug the other night and that we kissed each other goodbye in the morning - I don't know why, I just would like to have that closeness between us. Maybe I was mixing up feeling attracted to you with this feeling?? This feeling that I would just like to do anything to make you feel better. I don't think it's that I have proper feelings towards you or anything - I still love my boyfriend and this doesn't seem like something that would get in the way of that - I jsut want to feel closer to you and make you feel better and I don't know why.