[MsNobleEleanor]

(I'm just going to say it like it is)

My addiction is slowly coming back, I'm slowly seeking others to help my addiction. At the same time I'm very conflicted but I need it. My cravings are extremely strong and ready to relapse. I've never gotten help for my addiction I just simply stopped when I moved. Now, sitting here thinking of what to do... is crippling me. I'm addicted to sex and my addiction with sex has made it difficult for me to handle not having any release. Went 4 months not engaging in sexual behavior and here I am, wanting to message someone for it.

There isn't any reason for me to feel this way. I'm just ignoring my pain and working full time is helping me but with my own health concerns and a family member ill in the hospital with two types of cancer is hard for me being 11 hours from everyone. I don't regret moving so far away from everyone it has helped me.

I'll be in therapy in about 8-10 weeks till then I can work out my financial issues and over due unpaid rent. I need to be strong in this time of my life, I need to work through my money issues, health concerns and family.

I'm not sure what I should really be doing.