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Hello, Shruti. Welcome to TeenHelp! =)

Getting over a break-up can take time, especially when it was a serious relationship. Unfortunately, this isn't terribly uncommon with people around your age. When you're in high school (and college), you're still learning a lot about yourself and what you want/don't want in a partner/relationship. It sounds like your ex was very certain about marrying you at one point, but as he grew as an individual, his needs/wants changed, and consequently, he became interested in another woman.

I wanted to share that with you, because some people will assume they did something wrong, or they weren't "good enough" for their ex-partner. As devastated as you are right now, I hope you can recognize this was probably motivated by your ex's life transition, and wasn't due to you "failing" as a girlfriend.

You said you don't have any good friends to talk to right now - so why not talk to us on TeenHelp? =) It's certainly better than nothing at all! This may also be a good time for you to meet new people (not necessarily for dating). You could join a club/organization at your school, which would 1) allow you to create new friendships, and 2) distract yourself from the break-up for a short while. Distractions are a great way to cope, provided that they are healthy/safe distractions (ex. hanging out with friends, journaling, and focusing on your studies are great, whereas drinking/using drugs/engaging in self-harm wouldn't be great ways to cope).

I cannot emphasize enough that things WILL get better with time. I can't promise you'll be able to forget - but you can move past this, grow from the experience, and find happiness with someone else. You said you're not experiencing any anger/hatred now, but you probably will at some point. That's okay, too - it's typical of the grief process. Bargaining is also a typical part of the grieving process... so if you find yourself trying to "win him back," stop, and realize it wasn't meant to be. Even if he breaks up with his current girlfriend, your ex made it clear that you weren't "the one" for him... so why would you try to win him back if he's not as crazy about you as you are about him?

Take care, and feel free to keep us updated! =)