[CrystalJade]

When I was a kid I was sexually abused for maybe a year. Then a little over a year ago I was raped and they had left me bruised and scraped up. My cheek was bruised, there were hand prints on my wrists, my side's were bruised, arms and legs too, and I had a few cuts. I don't remember much though because I was passed out drunk and woke up with him on me. I found out this past year that I AM NOT A HORNY DRUNK either.

I've been having some issues since I was a kid but since last year it's gotten worse. I'll have a memory pop into my head and it'll stay there, I'll have what seems like a new memory of one of the events come up, things like that. I cry very hard when this happens. I thought I was at peace with what happened when I was a child but since last year its hard to be. I feel a heavy, sinking feeling in my chest and it makes hate myself even more.

So here's my question, how do you get past it? Past a lifetime of verbal abuse as well? One more question, do you think people who have been abused in the past have a higher chance of being abused later on (any kind of abuse)?