[amystery]

You hit a few sore spots tonight when we talked...things I didnt want to think about or talk about but now its all I can think about.

With you I want to push you away but I think you've already got too close. I dont know how you do it but I know that it scares me to know how you make me think and how I feel when I dont tell you things now.

I want to tell you sooo badly but Im still scared for some reason

It hurt to hear you say that I shouldnt talk to people online n idk who they are. I got a speech about how if I need to talk to someone I should talk to someone not on the computer cuz you never know who you get answering etc..in my head Im kinda going like um actually some of the most amazing people are the people I talk to online. if it werent for them i might not be here. You dont know how much I struggle and I intend to keep it that way but sometimes I wish I could stand up for my view on online friends but its not worth it