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Question Is my medication the reason behind all of this? - August 22nd 2012, 02:25 AM

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About 3, maybe 4 years ago, I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I was around 10 at the time, so it was really scary for me, especially since I didn't understand what it was.
But lately, I've been doing quite a bit of research on the side effects and blah blah blah. And I've come to a realization that I'm showing quite a bit of side effects.
When I was first put on the medication (Synthroid), I didn't eat for 3 days and I seemed to have mild insomnia for a few months. Then over time, I gained about xx pounds, which made me quite heavy for my age. I really became frustrated and confused.
Then, my parents and I got a second opinion at another doctor, and turns out the original "so called" top thyroid doctor in the state gave me too high of a dose. So that explained the not eating, not sleeping, and gaining weight. I eventually started eating again and sleeping normally again, but I never did lose the weight. I became very self-conscious about my appearance.
Things got a little better, I found a way better doctor. He kept my levels at the right number, lowered my dosage, and had me on the right track.
Well, in the past year, I've noticed I've started to develop major anxiety with anxiety attacks, as well as depression. I've always been quite the worrier since 1st grade, so it's not so surprising I soon developed anxiety, but did my medication make me develop anxiety too soon? Also the depression. I was a very happy kid, to be honest. Now I'm so lethargic, irritable, with constant mood swings, and just severely depressed and suicidal. Everything just seemed to go downhill in as little as a year.
As far as being depressed, I'm always constantly in a very blue mood, and I never am honestly happy anymore. Everything seems bad and dreary. I started harming because of the depression. And then suicidal thoughts began. Just constantly, all day. And just recently, I've started hearing voices, but I made a different topic about that in the Mental Health forum.

A few weeks ago, I had to go in to get my levels checked. When they called back the next day, they told me that they were so far off track, that they had to up my dosage to what is was when I started. I've been on that dosage for about a week, and I'm starting to feel worse than before.

Can all of this because of my hypothyroidism? It just seems to make so much sense.
And should I tell my parents so I can get in the doctor's office again?


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