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My boyfriend an I broke up because he cheated on me. He was in the showers as last after his training (was a drunk) when his ex-girlfriend (whose not over him) seduced him. She offered to gave him what I did not gave him. Sex. I was a virgin and wanted to wait. Before he could react it she was giving him a *******. He pushed her away, but only when he realized it was wrong. He was sorry, but we broke up.

He still loved me and I still loved him, but I wanted a break.

About a month later there was a party, he was there and I was there. He was drunk and high. The ex-girlfriend did some sort of drugs in his drink (she said that after she got to many alcohol inside of her) and was making him angry. Saying I was making out with a guy and stuff. She hoped that he would beat me so I never wanted to see him again. But he dragged me into the bushes and raped me, he hit me one time so I would shut up. He did his deed then paniced a bit and ran away. My 3 friends finded me and got me to my friend E.'s uncle (he used to be a nurse)(I was bleeding in my private area and in my face, he is very strong and did never know his own power). the uncle said to go to a hospital or the police, but I didn't want to go I got a warm bath and he fixed my face. He said that I must go to a docter for a bloodtest and a Sexual Disease test. He called my parents in the morning and E. told me about being forced by her boyfriend to sex, and that she got pregnant before she moved to here (she was then 15 the same age as me, she is now 18). This helped me, I did not know her that well she was more of a friends friend. I stayed with E. for about 3 weeks or so I didn't want to go home. I then did a bloodtest and was told I'm pregnant.

I'm now more than 1 month pregnant and I don't know what to do. My ex came to me to tell that he was sorry and that I should go to the police, but I don't want to. And if I go will he be locked up? And I don't know what to do about my pregnancy, he still doesn't know...And is he really sorry?

Does someone have advice or me? E. can't really help me she is against abortion and wasn't raped, but only a bit forced. So she isn't a big help....

Sorry for my bad english, it's not my first or second language.