[ForeverAnna]

Hey there,

It's sounds like an awful situation and I was in a similar one not too long ago, but I used drugs instead, but now, I've learnt to control my urges and so can you! You don't have to turn to alcohol to feel better and it's so good you've realised that it isn't the best idea, this is the first step in getting better.

First, if your mind thinks you need alcohol then give it 'alcohol', what I mean is, try non-alcoholic beer or wine, if you think your mind will not accept it get a friend or family member to switch it. This would also be a great opportunity to get help, believe me, it's not easy to get better alone, I know you said that you're not addicted but it's really easy to become addicted.

Alcohol is actually a depressant, so while you think it makes you relax it makes you more depressed which will lead to more alcohol, which leads to deeper depression. There's other ways/methods to relax, once you've found one you can train your mind to associate that method with relaxation your mind will not need alcohol.

I hope I helped, PM me if you want to talk about anything, stay strong.
Anna