[amystery]

I just wish you'd notice...any one would notice.

I wish you cared enough to ask what was wrong instead of making jokes.

I'm jealous of you. I honestly wish I were you. I wish I was having a baby at 18 and I don't care what you guys think of me for thinking this way.

I miss you more than you'll ever know.

You're cutting and depression scared me to death...it still scares me. But perhaps what scared me the most is that I never noticed when I should have. The image of you in the bathroom with blood running down your arm is what I see EVERY time I walk upstairs. I worry about you all the time and Im scared that it will all happen again. Not a day goes by that I don't worry about you. I love you sooo much and it killed me to see you like that. When I was gone for those twelve days on that trip I worried constantly I was right. Things were shitty for you. All those times I talked t you on the phone while I was there I lied I wasn't having a good time. In case you didn't notice I was crying on the other end. (It would kill me to tell you this but I cut now)