[gymnastxxLeah]

where to begin ...

I can't drink soda thats NOT diet without wanting to die.
Scratch that, i can't drink soda at all without wanting to die

My calorie count is obsessive, every bite counts.

i've tried to kill myself before.

i've lied. I've hurt. I've put everyone around me through so much.

i honestly believe i am the most worthless, fat, disgusting human being on the planet.

I've been self-harming for.. 4? 5 years now? i can't even remember.

my whole life has flashed before my eyes countless times.

My sock drawer has razors in it..

My scars actaully say something.

I've done almost everything on my bucket list.

my life isn't bad. I have friends... family... a roof over my head. clothes to wear. food to be (avoiding) eating. clean water. But i still can't sit with myself. i hate myself.

on the up side:

I've been number 1 at my gym. if i'm not 1, i'm 2.

i've taught at least 50 different kids how to do a cartwheel.

one time when i was 7, i got so nervous for a meet that i cried the whole time.

i've over-rotated into a higher level skill, and gotten points taken off.

I've tried to fly, and i've succeeded.