[Everglow.]

I'm not totally sure what I'm asking. I feel lonely again. I'm tired of this feeling coming back regardless of my efforts to make myself feel less so. People are slipping away from me. I try to do things with people, but cancellations happen too often and I expect them now. I try to speak to family and make it all okay, but there's so much segregation and disagreement that its just not realistic. I'm second best to so many people.

I don't know what more I can do. I don't even know if I'm asking anything because I've screamed out about being lonely so much and people just tell me I'm not alone. But I know that. I have people. But being alone and feeling alone are two different things, and I don't know how to feel like I'm not any more.

I'm sorry. I don't mean to waste your time with pointless threads.