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Re: Alcohol problems - July 11th 2012, 08:32 PM
Thankyou for taking the time to answer. Recently I have been trying to space it out so that I don't drink loads in one go. I think I'm actually scared of having to face things without alcohol. I've had 2 cans of lager tonight and I don't want to drink anymore, so I've switched to fruit juice, but the urge is overwhelming and now I want to self harm too. I've put my favourite film on, and I'm wrapped up in my duvet trying so hard to focus on it, but it is not working.
Now my mums just phoned me because I told her about the panic attacks I've been having and she was so nice. I honestly cannot stop crying. I hate it when people are nice to me. I really don't deserve it. I want a drink so badly, but I want to be able to cope without alcohol. I hate that I've let things get this bad.