[Biohazard320]

Hey, thanks for the response, it was really helpful. I asked those more difficult questions knowing I might not get good answers, but it's nice to know that the things I want to have in my future already exist in other people's lives.

This whole thread is about my sexual insecurities. My family and friends are just not very good to talk to about this kind of stuff. My parents are divorced and I haven't been exposed to very many happy marriages. I've seen a lot of relationships that got ruined because of sexual things, and I'm the type of person that likes to think really far ahead.

I also need a lot of reassurance due to my anxiety and paranoia problems, and I really would like to end up in a good marriage at some point, but I need to know that the type of marriage I want is possible, or I'd be tempted to give up on love altogether. Since the people in my real life are crappy examples on this subject, I search out good examples.