[Harmony♥]

1-Am I normal? (keep in mind that I essentially will watch anything porn related in order to get off even when it gets fairly sick and twisted)
ABSOLUTELY. Don't think you aren't normal just because you enjoy watching porn. I'm a straight female. This is how I identify myself, yet I love watching guy on girl, girl on girl and even guy on guy porn. I haven't been into any other kinds, but that doesn't mean YOU can't be. Watching certain types of porn doesn't make you a perv. Trust me. If that were the case, most teens and adults would be considered pervs.

2-What different ways can I try dealing with (and enjoy) my sexual needs without the guilt?
Just remember that you aren't the only one to that watches porn, and feels guilty about it. Everyone, at some point in their life, has watched porn and has, mostly likely, enjoyed it. Some people watch porn on a near daily basis, like myself, while others watch it occasionally. There is nothing to be ashamed of for something that you enjoy.

3-Should I keep watching?
This is something that is completely up to you. Nobody can tell you whether or not you should continue watching. This is something you need to decide alone. In my opinion, why quit? Yes, you may feel guilty afterwards, but that's something you need to figure out on your own.

4-Should I try to get past the guilt or is the guilt there for a reason
It's hard to tell if you're feeling guilty for a reason or not. It's most likely due to your religious upbringing. Your parent seem very open minded, which is great! They understand that teens are teens and they aren't forcing any kind of religious beliefs that sex should wait until marriage. Do I personally believe that sex should wait? No. I didn't wait because it was a decision I thought was right for me. You have every right to wait, however.

5-Am I going to be able to have the traditional marriage that I want so badly?
Again, this is something we can't exactly answer, but I can't see why not? I may not be married, but I'm enjoying a long-term, traditional relationship with my boyfriend of 3 years, and we both watch porn on a near daily basis (when we aren't together and can be intimate). Lot's of people who watch AND enjoy porn have long lasting marriages.

6-Are there decent men out there that want a traditional Christian marriage will understand that I'm too addicted to too many different kinds of porn and will NEVER be happy with a sex life that involves him and him alone?
I'm not sure a man would understand this, however, lot's of guys watch porn. If not all of them watch porn. So, they have to understand to some extent. But, again, this is another difficult question to answer.

7-Do marriages exist where the couple is open and honest with each other sexually--without all the things I hear about fake orgasms and cheating without much of an attempt to spice things up before giving up?
Absolutely! I'm not exactly sure where these questions are coming from, but again, I'm in a long-term relationship with my boyfriend and have never ONCE faked an orgasm. Neither has anyone else I know that is married, and/or in a long-term relationship.

8-Do you think I'll ever be able to find a man who really loves and respects me who believes in the sanctity of marriage and that will understand and appreciate my sexual appetite?
Absolutely. If that person doesn't appreciate you for you, he isn't worth your time.

Remember that most of these questions are questions that are difficult for us to answer, so you may see similar answers to mine. These are all questions you'll need to either figure out on your own, or they will be figured out over time as you enter a more serious, relationship world. There is no rush for you to jump into the relationship that's going to make all these questions come true. You're only 17, and have plenty of time for those kinds of relationships.