[Coffee.]

Hey there,

Jezza is right. We are not doctors, so we cannot diagnose you with an eating disorder. However, I can promise you that a lot of these are symptoms of one. Restricting, only eating certain foods (often known as safe foods), and wanting to throw up after eating? These are ED-like symptoms.

I think you need to have a long talk with your parents about these issues, maybe write them a letter explaining exactly what you said to us. That will show them how you're feeling sick when trying new foods, how you've restricted before, the worry about your weight, ext. Reaching out will help, as scary as it seems. They can take you to a doctor/nutritionist/dietitian who can give you the advice you need for trying new foods, eating the right amounts, toning your body, any anything else you may have questions about. This will also help your parents understand that you are not making the decision to not eat certain foods, but feel like you cannot, and it is something that you need help with. Mental illnesses, such as eating disorders, have such a stigma, people believe it is somebody's choice, but if you have an eating disorder, it is like having any other disease. You need help, and you need support.

Hope that helps, good luck! I'd also recommend the Guide to Healthy Eating Jezza suggested, it's very helpful, but read with caution.