[Tigerlily.]

Well as others have said, you really should go to the police and as both Rissy and John have pointed out, you should get a rape kit done if you still can. If the rape occurred less than 72 hours ago (in some cases they will do one even after 72 hours) you can still have one done, obviously it's best if you haven't showered, but if you have, then I'd still suggest seeing what they might be able to find. And take in the clothes you were wearing that day, obviously it works better if you haven't washed them yet. Whether you get a rape kit or not, you should try to go to the police with this. What he did was wrong and you never deserved any of that. I know it can be so hard to think about it, but with your boyfriend by your side I'm sure you can do this. If you are too scared to go the police yourself possibly ask your boyfriend if he can, but do know that you will still have to be the one to testify. I also highly suggest going to see a therapist or grief counselor, like Rissy suggested. Things like this are not just things you can get over and move on like it never happened. These can be debilitating to a lot of people emotionally and mentally and can really interfere with your life. Even if you don't go to the police, you really should talk to a professional about what happened so they can help you learn to cope with what has happened.