[LANIKA]

First of all, let me say from the bottom of my heart that I'm sorry you had to go through this. Rape is a very traumatic, scary, tragic, thing that you shouldn't have had to go through. That nobody should have to go through, ever.

What you should have done is went to the hospital and had a rape kit done on you - They would have given you plan B to ensure you wouldn't have gotten pregnant from it too, and they would have also had evidence against your attacker. Since you didn't mention that in your post, I'm going to assume that you didn't; for anyone who reads this, though, that's the -first- thing you should do. Not take a shower, not sit and think about what happened, and not contemplate on whether or not to press charges. A rape kit should always be the first step.

Again though, going under the assumption that you didn't have one done. . . It's still important to contact the authorities. You need to do this, if you don't, this man will continue to harass you. He seems . . . Sociopathic, at best. If you don't feel comfortable with having charges pressed against him, you can still get a restraining order to assure that he'll leave you alone. And you need to get him to leave you alone. You can't have somebody so horrible doing these things to you; and once it starts, it because a vicious cycle unless you stop it.

Again, I'm so very sorry this happened to you. I would also suggest seeing a therapist or a grief counselor about this as well. Rape and sexual assault of any kind, for that matter, is very serious and leaves lives shattered. So it would be ideal to talk to a professional about it.

-hugs-