[glossophobic]

when i was seven i was raped by a family friend, that used to live ion my house. i the beginning i thought it was my fault so i tried to forget and for along time i did and i never thought about. i had stayed quiet especially when he went back to mexico but once he came back a couple of years later, it became hard to avoid him but i still tried. even when he close to me i was just stay standing in total shock i couldnt even move from the spot. this the first time i even wrote or tried to speak out about this. i dont feel like its my fault anymore but it still feels embarrassing just saying it and i still havent told anyone in my family what happened. i just dont know what to do anymore, it feels pointless to me to even tell my parents anything especially with a lot of problems with family at the moment.