[Coffee.]

Hey Holly,

First of all, you have been so strong throughout this whole process. Whether or not you realize, just because you have been slipping does not mean that you did not have process on the way there. Think of your feelings a couple of years back, and think about all you've succeeded at. You're been doing GREAT.

Second, eating disorders are complicated. It takes years to get as sick as eating disorders let us get, from the years of the thoughts, the dieting, the way the dieting gets out of control, and of course, the realization that you are at rock bottom. It does not take overnight to get back up to the top, and get healthy again, it is a process, and it's going to take longer than you may like. In two years, you're physically been able to regain a lot you have lost, but you still have work to do about accepting your body the way it is supposed to be.

Your counselor will know this is true, and know that it'll take longer to make you completely "better" and they will understand and give you ways to help you! Let them know exactly your feelings, exactly where the habits are going, and get the help you deserve. You've gotten this far, back up to a healthy weight, and you can be happy again!

Good luck!