[Beautiful Lie]

Invisible tears are the heardest tears to wipe away,
Tears that no one knows are falling,
Crying on the inside is hearder than crying on the outside,
Means no one know your falling apart.
Each day I have thourghts about how I want life to be,
Each day I have thourghts that scare me,
No one knows what I am hiding behind this smile.
No one knows how I feel inside.
Needing someone to help you through,
Dosen't mean that your weak,
Or that you cant cope alone,
It means that you dont want to be alone,
Falling to fast that no one has time to catch you,
Keeping emotions from the people who care,
No wanting to get up in the morning,
Hidding from people that are trying to help.
People who have not suffered the pain,
Wont know what its like to suffer,
People who suffer know how heard it is,
just to keep your head heald high.
The smiles you see the laughs you hear,
Are all just ways of hidding the pain within,
I am a fragile soul that has been taken advantage of.
I just cant stop the thourght from coming through.
The only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain,
Thourghts of scuiside go running through my mind,
Ending my life might end this pain that im going through,
But cause pain for the people that say that they care for me.
You think you know me for who I am,
But really you know the person that I pretend I am,
Keeping emotions quiet is the only way to stop the constant questions,
The more I lie about my feeling the more I start to believe them myself.
I stay in my room all day,
In the dark pretending im asleep,
When really i just dont have the energy to face to the world,
My strength just turns to weakness and my energy leaves me.

Written By Nicole.