[Eternal]

I wasn't happy.
I wasn't happy where I was.

What is life without a purpose?
What is purpose without love?
I pray my children will forgive me, though I bade the river flood.
I have washed my hands a thousand times but still can see the blood.

I am here to beg forgiveness for this mess.
I know I tore two worlds apart but I can't change the way I felt.
Love swept in like a storm and ripped the hinges from the doors.
Love poured in like a flood,
I couldn't stop it anymore.
I will not be drowned.

Lover, come and hold me, I am terribly afraid.
While you're shouting at the stars,
My scars are not fading away.

Darling, I was begging heaven
make them disappear
But I didn't get an answer or at least one I could hear.
Now, I am thinking of the past and how we both said vows and lied
and I am wondering how we trust ourselves to say a second time.