[Eternal]

You had option.
I was your chance to feel complete.
But when I leaned in close to you,
you kissed your fear instead of me.
But you wouldn't let your fear recede so I moved on.

And it's too late to change your mind now,
You got scared, and I got gone.
Now you failed, and there's no way to turn back time.
You had your chance, I tried.

You must understand that fear is not some product that I made.
It crept unwelcome in my head the day they had her torn away.
It changed me.

Now at the end of everyday I lie awake at night and wait
To feel the wires of my brain get cut and quietly rearranged,
And hear my beaten heart exclaim,
Still, I refuse to let him go.

And I'm sorry, dear, but don't you dare say another word.
How could I risk holding your heart in me
While still in love with him?