Like Elizabeth said,
ED's are VERY complex. it sounds like some of the mindset of an
ED is there... But notthe symptoms that make and eating disorder an eating disorder.
It sounds like you DO have a low self-esteem and some self-consiousness... But there aren't symptoms present for an eating disorder.
No one here on
TH can diagnose you. We are not doctors.
If you have any symptoms like restricting calories DANGEROUSLY, obsessive exercise (an this doesn't mean 30 minutes everyday. When i was at my worst point I was exercising in secret 3 hours on weekdays and 5 on weekends.) purging, laxative abuse, binging, or fasting... Then you absolutely need to speak up, because that is eating disordered behavior, and it is extremely dangerous.
I think you have the low self-esteem that contributes to an eating disorder, but I wouldn't say you have an
ED.