[Eternal]

At times I’ve shouted out unprovoked, at the world and you,
Just to see if the people around me react.
Sometimes I think they’re all acting,
At times I’m scared that I’m acting too.

Maybe I just think about it all so much
That that the fear stays close to all the ghosts I’ve touched.
Was it love or just lust?

Maybe it’s just as much about what comes our way as it is how we react.
Just as much about the things that we’ve still got as it is about the things we lack.
I know, we won’t always keep around all we feel we need

I want to believe that the way I am
is just the way it goes.
For the things that came,
not the things I chose