So, guys, I have a problem.
Despite the fact that I've been asked out a total of five times since my ex and I broke up, none of the guys who have asked me have been my type. Don't get me wrong: I'm friends with all sorts of people. But...
I tried dating one of the guys who liked me, just to see what it was like. He was not only unintelligent, but I simply didn't feel anything for him like I remembered feeling for other guys. The first guy I ever dated, it was awesome right from the beginning; he was a hopeless romantic, and could debate me on the sanity of a thousand historical figures I looked up to, not to mention the older music we both loved. I guess he's a hard act to follow, for everyone after him.
But, then again...
I just feel so lonely! It feels awful, to have so much love in my heart, and to have no one to share it with. The only guy who's paid me any mind that I actually liked was coincidentally my first boyfriend's former best friend. All the band and choir kids went ice skating, and he helped me learn to skate and held my hand so I wouldn't be so scared of falling. A few days before that, I said I was cold and he lent me his jacket. He was absolutely thrilled when he heard I was joining marching band ('cause he's in it).
But I don't really know how to talk to him. He's been my friend for longer than a lot of people I know, and I know he flirts with a lot of people. But I don't know whether he likes me as more than a friend or not... And I'm terrified to ask. Not to mention that school's out, and I can't really talk to him that much, thanks to that.
Dear gosh.
