[Eternal]

You still cross my mind from time to time, and I mostly smile
Still so set on finding out where we went wrong and why
So I retrace our every step with an unsure pen
Trying to figure out what my head thinks
But my head just ain't what it used to be
And then again, what's the point anyway
You held my hand but you were too afraid to speak
You were too afraid to speak and I could never understand

And I remember when I knew that you'd be leaving
How I barely kept up breathing
And I bet if I had to do it all again
I'd feel the same pain

It must be true what people say
That only time can heal the pain
And every single day I feel it fade away but
I still remember how the distance tricked us
And led us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured
I still remember how we held so strong to this
Though we had never really settled on a way out
I still remember the silence
And how we'd always find a way to turn and run to our mistakes
I still remember how it all came back together
Just to fall apart again

I held your name inside my heart
But it got buried in my fear
It tore the wiring of my brain
I did my best to keep it clear
So dear, no matter how we part
I hold you sweetly in my head
And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead
If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend