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Re: I need help grieving. :/ - May 20th 2012, 06:18 AM
I talk about it all the time. My mom was there, too, but she stayed by the car. I have four instructors that I talk to whenever they teach class. The two in the classroom are always concerned and making sure I'm okay. The two instructors on the ambulance text me every day, and one of them was actually on the ambulance the night of the accident.

I do feel guilty. I didn't have my turnout gear in the car, so I wasn't allowed to stand by him to try and comfort him. I couldn't hold his hand during the hour it took to get him out. I know in my heart he was absolutely terrified. I live two minutes from the accident site, and I regret not sending my mom home to get my turnouts.