[WashoutThePain]

I recommend taking a break from your relationship. You can still be close, but I would refrain from any sexual behavior until you both can process what has happened and what you want to do from here. She has experienced a huge amount of trauma and abuse in her life, and I highly doubt she can cope with everything at this point. If you truly want the best for her, I suggest you stop having sex with her so she has time to think about things. You need to earn back some trust, not just with her, but yourself as well.

I also think you should be seeing someone, as well. Rape is a very serious crime, and judging by your suicide attempt and feelings at this point, therapy would be a good option for you. It's not okay to go around hurting others, and I am glad you realize this and want to stop. However, you need to address the issues in your life that are causing such behavior to have happened. It's okay to need help.


Please talk to someone about what has been going on. It will be better for you and your girlfriend.