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Hi! Lately im really afraid im going to develop an eating disorder. Let me elaborate.
Ive been really sick for a while, anything ( once eating an apple made me leave school early ) i eat i get extremly bad stomach aches bloating and a bunch of other things im always laying down cause it hurts too much. Im seeing a doctor about this so its being handled atm.
Ive been trying to loose weight and exersie everyday so i have a calorie counter on my phone. The calculator keeps record of my age height and weight and if i want to loose (edited) or (edited) lb a week ( i chose (edited)lb ) and it gAve me a reccomened daily calorie intake wich my doctor agreed with! But-
Because when i eat i feel pain i only eat max (edited) calories a day. My doctors worried because when i was weighed i lost (edited)lbs since my last visit and w.o clothes i lost (edited)lbs :x

Im fustrated about my weight but i know its easy to work it off by eating well and working hard and most of its bloating anyways, but im afraid because of my illness and once i can treat it ill still be too afraid to eat over (edited) or (edited) calories because ill still be afriad ill feel pain even once if i get better.

Do you think i will be okay am i over worrying? How can i prevent being afraid of calories if i get treated? Thank you