It's been a while since I've been back on
TH, but now I kind of need some advice from people who might have been through something like this.
I'm finishing my freshman year of college. I recently moved into a house with the homeowner and two other renters, and everything is very nice so far. But my problems with depression and anxiety are not going away any time soon, and with that comes isolation and people getting worried.
The past few weeks have been stressful, with moving, finals coming up, and trying to manage the end of freshman year. Today I was basically zoned out and exhausted, and I just isolated. I only left my room to take a shower, go to the restroom, and take the trash out, and at none of those times did I see either of my roommates or the landlady.
A little while ago, the landlady just knocked on my door to say hello and ask if I was okay before she went to bed, because she hadn't seen me all day. I said I was okay and that I didn't think she was home today when I was downstairs, and then we said good night and everything.
I feel awful that people worry about me, or are put off by me. I know it isn't healthy for me to isolate myself. I just get tired like this sometimes and I don't even have the energy to have a normal conversation. I worry that I might be putting one of my roommates off, because I have yet to have any kind of conversation with him, just due to the fact that I'm always tired and anxious about something.
What do I do? I can act normal when I'm on campus and hanging out with my friends, but on days like this I'm just too tired. Needed to rant a little bit, sorry for the long post. Any input is appreciated.. Thanks!