[allow_me]

You're right I am really lucky compared to some girls and I do realise that but it doesn't make me hate it any less. I'm not going to damage my reproductive organs (though I really would like to make them stop working. x.x) because I don't want to screw anything up and end up with some weird disease or something.

I guess the biggest thing is I hate the feeling of wearing a pad. It feels like a diaper to me and I'm convinced everyone can tell. I get (more) snippy and lethargic while I'm on it as well. I would use tampons but I've ended up having panic attacks both times I tried now so it looks like I'll be stick to pads a while longer.

The birth control both of you mentioned sounds *really* lovely. It would be really nice to have only one a year. I don't know if I'd be able to take it or not though because I really despise pills. >>