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Hey.

From what I've found, doctors tend to only deal with the more common illnesses, for example depression and anxiety which could be dealt with largely with medication. For anything else, a psychiatrist or psychologist is probably the better way to go.

On that note, do you know what can't diagnose you? An online test. As the others have pointed out, these are mostly for amusement and should not be used as the basis for assuming you have a mental illness. Finding out a lot of information about a disorder you think you have can actually cause you to convince yourself that you have it, which can lead to you being misdiagnosed and therefore not getting the proper treatment. So just be wary of diagnosing yourself.

As Jess above me said, personality disorders, especially BPD, are rarely diagnosed at such a young age. While it's plausible that they could be diagnosed, say, when you're just shy of eighteen, it's not logical for them to give you this label when you're still barely a teenager and definitely haven't finished developing. If they did, I bet the vast majority of the teenage population would be diagnosed with disorders they didn't have!

For now, it might be better to focus less on the label and potential disorder, and more on your feelings and thoughts. Even if you don't have a disorder, or are undiagnosed, you can still see a counsellor or something similar, which can be a lot of help. If you took this online test and some of the symptoms clicked with you, okay, then just deal with those instead of trying to fit into the label of having BPD.

You might like to have a look at some information about finding psychiatric services, or people who can help (I realise the latter is for depression/suicide, but it could also be applicable here). I hope that things work out well, and that you start feeling better soon. Take care.