[emma01]

Hey

I think you needed to stay in treatment longer. Many doctors and that who haven't experienced an ED themselves seem to feel that weight restored = brain restored. And that certainly isn't the case. What I mean by this is - its easy to make someone gain weight in a treatment centre, but it really is the mental side that needs to be fixed.

While you may feel the need to starve again - think of it this way, if you lose all the weight again, your parents will find out and you will be re-admitted and you really have to gain the weight back. If you are uncomfortable with the amount of weight you have put on you should discuss it with your doctor who may recommend a diet that will lose you weight healthily, however in your mindset I really think that would be silly.

You really can't win with an eating disorder, you have to gain weight, or you die. Either way you don't get to live your life at an emaciated weight. I really don't mean to be rude but I really want to push you to get more help. ED's are a lot easier to treat when you are not underweight, because instead of being disheartened by weight gain, you just have to fix your mental side!!!!