[Adrian]

Do you realize how much I worry about you? I'm not sorry about reading them all. It seems now that's how I'll know when somethings wrong with you since you wont tell me anymore. Whatever happened to telling me everything? I love you so fucking much. Yes, I have a temper but how can I not when my best friend is hurting herself and not letting me help or talking to me? I want to help you. I want you to know I care. I want you to realize I'm not leaving you. I want you to understand that I hate more than anything when you're in pain. 5 minutes ago? I saw that and I wont forget. I typed them all out on my desktop home screen. Whenever I turn on my laptop I'll remember. I'll think of you and they're not coming down until I know why and how you did it. You always get so defensive with me but come on. You've told me so much and I'm still here. Nothing you do will ever make me not want to talk to you. What are you so afraid of? Why can't you just tell me? Oh, and I knew my name wouldn't last long up there. It never really does anyway.